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So if you want to leave, go ahead. So if you never wanted to stay, you could had just said I don't want to stay near you. A long time ago. Because now that you have became a part of this stupid concrete wall that I am, you will leave a hole in it. And all of you will be able see through it.

But you did not say anything. And now I must throw you away, as you will someday wish to become a part of someone else's concrete wall.

So, go.

Ahead.

And I shall try, at last, not to fall into this hole you dig every day as your innocently cruel part of you in my wall. And I must see this emptiness seducing me through it, but I shall never, ever dive in it. Because I would drown myself while I knew you wouldn't return to save me.

And now... maybe I have just done that.